I adopted Jake, my avatar, when I was few months pregnant and he was 6 years old. I've had him for 13 years. He was 18 or 19. On September 16th,2009 I had to euthanize him. He was so diminished, he hardly noticed. So dependent on me, so needy, falling apart, literally He has few small strokes, was partially paralyzed and has a cluster of Mast cells on his left paw that if I didn't bandage, he would chew off. In fact, he did chew part of them off, leaving room for infection. It was awful. Surgery was not an option, not at 126 years old.

Despite my rationales, I feel so bad about it.

I've intervened on behalf of unfortunate animals and made a difference.

I have adopted four other dogs in 6 years and rehomed 3. I wish I could do more.

I've been fired from my favorite job for spaying/giving medical attention to the feral cats and taking the kittens away before they became feral. 

I've rescued dumped dogs from country roads, and called in to the shelters the ones I couldn't get.

I'd like to see a change in how (some) rural people treat cats and dogs. There seems to be a prejudice against spaying, neutering and giving medical attention to these animals. They think its a "city" thing. Or a Liberal thing. Its a mind, body soul thing, not a political statement, caring about animals. I'd like to see the laws that protect untethered dogs from pick up trucks get upheld. I'm tired of worrying about them, seeing the dead dogs along the roads. 

Aside from my animal actions, I'm a self employed Landscape Designer. I do more than design, I also work hard physically and love my work. I want to grow food and flowers for a living and keep animals. Would that make me a hybrid; Francher? 

When I win the lottery, I'll be near Best Friends in Utah, raising food, flowers and caring for animals.

I'd like to connect with other people here, to help heal the wound from having to euthanize my best friend, no matter how humane. I hurt inside because of that. 

I met a lovely woman today, walking on the beach with my herd of four. Her name is Samantha. She had just put down her lovey, Boo Boo. She was having a hard time with it, more than I am. I am reaching out to her.

Samantha, you will heal. Boo needed you, you were there. Its the hardest thing ever. But you will heal.