But I know I must. This morning I met Perkey at our vet's office where one of the compassionate lady vets helped Trixi to cross the Rainbow Bridge. She did so well the first day after the dental surgery, but has been reluctant to eat since that time, and has been sleeping most of the days. She even refused baby food today, so Perkey made an appointment to have her checked again.
When Perkey went into the bedroom to get her for the appointment she knew immediately that something was very, very wrong. Trixi was trying to sit up and her head was at an odd angle. She called me and asked me to meet her at the vets office, which i did. Something happened, a blood clot, a stroke, possible a heart attack, but whatever it was the vet agreed with us that it was unlikely she would be able to come back to anything like a quality life, and that it was time to let her go. We spent some time alone in the room with her, and I used my cell to let Brad tell her "see you later," and then the vet cam back in and helped Trixi find healing at the Rainbow Bridge.
Perkey is very sad, of course, but knows that she did the right thing for her little girl, and Brad and I are grieving too. Trixi was such a special little girl, right from the day she chose Perkey to be her new mom at a PetsMart adoption day. Everyone who met her loved her, and none of us will ever forget her.
Marg, can you make the following additions to the Candle Lists, please?
Bridge:
*Trixi-Li, dog, 12 yrs., 10/29/09, Perkey B and family
Special Needs:
*Skara, Max (the cat), Max (the dog) and Sierra, missing their sister/cousin
Human Needs:
*Perkey B, grieving for Trixi-Lee
*Brad and Marion, Grieving for Trixi and concerned about Perkey
Hugs,
A very sad Auntie Marion
Oh no Marion
I am so sorry. It's got to be hard for Perkey, she was only trying to do the best for Trixi with the dental work. You all are in my prayers. Please ask Perkey if I can plant something for Trixie Lee in my Memory Garden in the Spring.
Sad Hugs
KimW
Oh my dear friend Ribs,
Pain eminates from your every word. I am so sorry. Trixi put up a gallant fight to stay with her beloved humans, but in the end she just couldn't return to her old self again.
Perkey knows in her mind and in her heart that she made the right decision. It's just so darned difficult not to notice that huge gaping hole left in our hearts when a piece of it flies away on it's way to the Rainbow Bridge, isn't it. And even though we know that Trixi is healthy, and hole again, it doesn't take away the awful pain in which her absence leaves us. (very big sigh) I wish I knew some magic words that would take away your pain....and that you could tell Perkey so her pain would go away. But it just doesn't work that way does it my friend?
My heart aches for all of you, because I know how badly a loss like this hurts, and will hurt for a long time.
I pray that you all can cling together and to those of us here, and know you have a gentle place to land, in the centerest of the quilt....
Godspeed Trixie...
Much love, many prayers and infinite Hope,
Jabi
Oh Ribs, my dear friend,
Pain eminates from your every word. I am so sorry.
I am sure Perkey knows she made the only choice she could for Trixi, but that doesn't make the result any easier with which to cope doze it? And although we know Trixi is healthy and whole, now, it still doesn't stop the pain of the huge hole left in our hearts when our beloved furry ones take a piece of it with them when they go to the Rainbow Bridge. One would think we would gain solace knowing that our sweet critter no longer feels the pain they were in, but that solace just won't come...yet.
I wish I had some magic words I could say to you that would make the pain stop, and that you could say to Perkey and her pain would stop...but it just doesn't work that way, does it?
I will, though offer prayers for you, for Perkey, for Brad and for all who loved precious Trixi...and in time, the pain will lessen...it will...I promise.
In the meantime...
Godspeed Trixi...
Hmmm...sorry everyone.
I thought the message monster ate my first message to Ribs because it didn't show up....at least it didn't show up until after I wrote and posted the second message. So if it looks like I tried to say the same thing twice...I did...I just couldn't remember it word for word.
Sorry,
Marion...I am so sorry. Sometimes it is hard to read these sad posts because I know I will be crying right along with the family. I can feel the pain...it's like reliving a moment with my own. I know how I felt and I feel for you as well...There are never words that are expressive enough. never.
Teary hugs to all of you and candleglow to light Trixie's path.
Candi
Marion, I'm so sorry that Trixie had to go to the Bridge today. Everything seemed to be going so well. She was so fortunate to have Perkey to care for her all these years and to have a wonderful aunt who cared so much for her. You know that she is now whole and happy and running around like a puppy and waiting to meet you. You and Perkey take care and know that you have many friends who are keeping you in their prayers and thoughts.
Marion and Perkey, you are in my thoughts and prayers. So sorry to hear about Trixi. I know and you and Perkey know you did the right thing but it's still painful.
Wishing Perkey and you all comforting and healing at this time. And that you all find consolation in knowing that little Trixi is healthy and whole and her exuberant self again.
Jean & the Tux
Such big pawprints they leave on our hearts but that's where we want them to be, forever in our hearts & Trixi will be loved & remembered as the happy girl she is at the Bridge.
Prayers for all of you at this time.
Nancy
I know none of us here wants to read this kind of post... it brings back so much for each of us that have lost.... we understand the heartache...
In the sad times there are also I have learned the good stuff, the fact that Trixi was loved very much and given the very best... the good memeoires that will comes more often than the sad..
God Speed Trixi prayers to her mom and her friends that will miss her forever.......
Julie
God Speed Trixi!
Gentle hugs/pets to those left behind { }
She is happy and whole and pain free at the Bridge now.
Until one has loved an animal, part of one's soul remains unawakened. ~ Anatole France
Thank you, my friends. I knew you would find the words to make the world a little brighter. Perkey hasn't been able to read the posts here yet, but she's doing okay, and providing a lap for her two beautiful cats when she's not working on the computer. She'll be okay, I know, but there will be some weepy days ahead for her, and for Brad and I as well.
She'll be coming over tomorrow, as she does almost every Saturday. It will seem so strange to have only two dogs here, and I'm sure Max and Sierra will be a bit confused. Or maybe not. Maybe Trixi has already explained things to them. The distance between the Bridge and home isn't all that far for those on the other side of that Bridge.
I look at my two little ones, knowing they are about Trixi's age, and know that I will be in Perkey's place before many more years have passed. Like Perkey, though, I know that today, and the many todays we've had and those we look forward to still, leave memories to treasure and to sustain us until that wonderful day of reunion.
Trixi had a badly broken rear leg when she was found on the freeway north of here. It was slightly twisted, but seldom slowed her down. Now, I know, she runs on four intact legs, and will happily play in the fields, and roll in the grass to her heart's content, and in the snow whenever she chooses. At the Bridge, I know, her little legs will be just long enough to get through the drifts and the grass will never grow long enough to tickle her little tummy. At night, though, I'm sure she'll snuggle up with her pride of kitties and sleep under her blankie enjoying her dreams of the day when she's with her loving mommy once again.
Hugs
Marion
I'm so sorry about Trixi, Marion. Please extend my sympathies to Perkey as well.
Oh no, Ribs! When I saw the title I was afraid that it was Trixi's Bridge note, but still hoped it wasn't. I'm so very sorry Please give Perkey huggles from me and more are coming for you and Brad, of course.
Perkey is very sad, of course, but knows that she did the right thing for her little girl, and Brad and I are grieving too.
But there is a big gap between knowing and recovering from that Terrible Decision, isn't there? I've added everyone to the lists with sorrow and sympathy.
Gentlte huggles, many prayers and love
Marf
Perk hasn't read the messages here yet, Sam, but I know she will once she feels a bit stronger, and I know she'll appreciate the support everyone here has offered. Right now she's in the mode of just putting one foot in front of the other and getting through each day without a meltdown.
Thanks for the list additions, Marf. I'd expected a bit of confusion from my own dogs when Perk came over today, but they seemed to take things in stride. I have a feeling a little brown doggie whispered in their ears on her way to the Rainbow Bridge.
As for Brad and I, we'll miss her a lot too, but in time I know all of us, including my sad little sister, will be able to savor the happy memories and be thankful to have had her in our lives for 7 wonderful years.